My new normal

My life has literally flipped upside down in the last month. I went from being the girl that was never up to date with TV series or the latest movies, to the girl waiting impatiently for the next episode. I know thats not me, but it will be for the next little while. This morning i woke up at 11, i think that is probably the latest i have ever slept in my entire life. I started to notice the last few days i have been sleeping in pretty late but 11:00am is just not ok. I actually woke up pretty irritable, i felt like i had waisted my whole morning. Its not like i really had much to do, but i wanted to get up and do something. Laying in bed all morning just didn’t feel right. I got up and went out for breakfast and a coffee with my dad. We got into my car and i started to drive, i was pretty excited because i haven’t driven in a while, but also because i got to spend one on one time with my dad. I have two other sister so in general its not common that we often get one on one time with either my mom or dad. So i considered myself pretty lucky. My dad tends to always make me feel better about everything, and throughout the last month he has always been the most positive. I know that inside he’s probably scared for me, but i would never know. He speaks about me with such confidence, and it just reassures me that i’m going to be okay. 

When we got home from Starbucks i went right back to the dinning room where i had all my things set up. I have a lot of little projects on the go, things that i have always wanted to do but never had the time. I have my scrapbook on the go on one side of the table, and all my old clothes and bathing suits on the other side ready for some alterations. I have always fixed up my old clothes, but now that i have the time it has definitely turned into an obsession and now i’m begging my mom for a new sewing machine. I also spend a large portion of my day on the piano. Although its still a straining to use my voice, playing is still that one thing that always makes me feel better. 

The rest of my day normally consists of spending time with family and friends. Today one of my best friends Katherine came over to spend some time with me. Katherine has an extremely busy schedule since she is an elite Volleyball player, yet she always makes time in her day to spend time with me. My friend Anastasia and her parents also stopped by tonight. I have been training with Anastasia since i was a little kid, but in the last year we both started training more primarily at other clubs. But we have definitely been able to stay close friends. Anastasia and her family are so kind and supportive its hard not to smile when you are in their presence. 

Although my average day looks nothing like it used to, i’m doing everything i can to make it fulfilling. Ive got the best group of family, friends and doctors behind me. I know ill be back at it in no time, and my feet will be back where they belong; in my skates.